Unbearable Suffering: My Fight Against the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It was a gloomy weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a intense pain bloomed behind my right eye. It was followed by quick stabs, reminiscent of electric shocks. As the school day came and went, the pain eased and then came back with greater intensity. Multiple times that day I left a colleague with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried paracetamol, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The headaches returned frequently that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon establishing an yearly cycle. September and October were the most severe, then the late winter. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the train, full-blown pain in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches often begin with severe discomfort around a single eye that persists for three hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and men are more often diagnosed. Attacks usually start with sudden, severe agony focused on a single eye that peaks within minutes and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in seasonal cycles; some patients have chronic attacks, characterized by the absence of long pain-free periods.

What unites patients is the severity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 10, higher than broken bones or other conditions. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during attacks; the number dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Wales, isn't surprised. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through her youth. Alcohol in her adolescence, similar to many causes, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often mistook her attacks as intoxicated episodes. Support eventually came from her father and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often concealed her illness. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during attacks. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.

Nevertheless, the failure to organize life around erratic attacks took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented across history. “The first description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an evil entity who attacked his victims' heads.

Historical healing records suggest bizarre treatments for what modern experts would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a distinct disorder, with treatments ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a European doctor who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing each day at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only formally recognised by international medical committees in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel that delivers blood to the head. Prominent specialists in treating the condition explain this.

In 1998, researchers published the results of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a prominent medical publication, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.

Despite such advances, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had four operations before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician looked up his complaints.

Specialists say delays in diagnosing and managing happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other common head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do signs occur? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to specialist centers. But many first go to A&E or are given unsuitable treatments.

A charity trustee, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars pulled because dental professionals misunderstood her symptoms. She thinks dentists still need much more awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a calm volunteer guided them through oxygen treatment and drugs until the episode passed.

National guidance on treatment advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a specific medication delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the bouts of some individuals.

But consultant neurologists believe the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The length of the bout determines the approach.” Brief bouts with occasional episodes are managed with acute treatment only. More prolonged or more intense bouts require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an injection into the side of the head where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity.

The national guidelines need updating to reflect a
Brenda Schmidt
Brenda Schmidt

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